Imperfect, forever at odds

Knowing all our imperfections, yet still at odds.
Strive for the impossible... perfection
Creating an inner turbulence,
an idealistic notion that if perfection is obtained
life will become easier and all of which is desired,
will be ours.

Wasted time, precious moments spent,
on the what ifs and hidden storms that
no one heard but self.

Focus on forward, evolution of self,
improving what is, growth and wisdom.
Strive to become the best version of self
leaving a positive legacy, beautiful footprints
on the vast beach of existence.

A beautiful soul made of stardust, who,
buffed away the grit and became a
shining star, sparkling for future generations.

We all were created to become stars
shining in the sky, proof that
no matter how rough life gets,
we still can shine and share that
with others, to help them shine too.

"UndiscoveredSoul"

Rebounding

Thrice By Thrice,Two By Two,
What You've Sent, Returns To You.

Crashing Of Wave, Burning Of Flame,
Safety Of Earth, Spirit Knows Your Game.

Thrice By Thrice,Two By Two,
What You've Sent, Returns To You.

Reflection, Deflection, is the price you pay,
You too get what you sent my way.
Bound To Rebound, Wound, now Unwind,
In your hate you shall drown, in your hate you go blind.

Thrice By Thrice,Two By Two,
What You've Sent, Returns To You.

"UndiscoveredSoul"

Life is but a dream........

Dream of world Peace, dream of a world free from ego and greed, dream of a world where race, religion, appearances, money and sexual preference do not cause separation or wars... Dream of a world without crime, without violence.




Dream of a world without corruption, without snakes hiding in the grass, without hidden puppet masters pulling the strings and playing each piece as the pawn. Dream of that equality, where tax money really went for the betterment of all, where the government is there to serve, not control.




Dream of the simple and pure desire to live in a world of joy and true freedom, one with compassion and respect, where people help instead of hurt, they lift up instead of beat down, where everyone is important, and everyone is worthy of love.

Dream of a world free of pollution, where the water is still pure and the food is safe to eat. Dream of a world without destruction, where trees are held in high regard and there is respect for the natural world around us. Dream of a world without Monsanto, with out chemicals. Dream of a world where we actually found that delicate balance between being human and protecting each other and the Earth.

Tonight our family things of these things. We do not know the future, it may all simply be another false alarm, but truly, how many false alarms will we endure until the big one finally happens?

Have you said your peace? Told that person you forgive them..... or that you apologize? Have you made that call, reached out to that person just to say you love them, or that they are important to you? Have you thanked someone who has helped you, or maybe shared a smile and a coffee with a stranger?

This may be our last chance to do these things, we are not promised tomorrow, we can only live each day we are blessed with to it's fullest and most wonderful potential.

Leaving a lasting positive legacy is a pretty amazing thing and maybe, if the change can happen and people can finally evolve, our world as we know it can change....

and it may just.....

Become a bit more......

Dreamlike

*UndiscoveredSoul*

Unsure, the black cloud.

I am unsure how it is possible
how can I be so sure we are meant to be,
how can we love each other so deeply, so true
so perfectly in sync, our souls constantly dancing a song-less waltz
of passion, joy, friendship and true love....

Yet our life is pure tragedy.

We move forward, step foot into the light,
doing all that is right, what is needed and expected,
Yet when we find comfort and peace
suddenly a black cloud surrounds our very lives.

It seems it waits, watching it stalks us,
pouncing only when happiness and peace finds us.

If we get ahead, that cloud pushes us back,
if we get comfortable, that cloud brings us pain
if we find happiness, that cloud it brings us sadness

We send out good, sharing, caring, giving
we cleaned up the bad, no more excess, no more vices

yet that black cloud still remains

we push through the frustration, the torment, the depressing and angst,
trying to force and foster happiness, peace and joy once again,
but the black cloud it digs deeper never letting go, reminding us

always reminding us of the doubt, the lack of self worth,
the pain and despair that seems to always whisper in our ears.

We sit out in the pure sun, to chase away the black cloud....
the sun warms and baths us in it's luxurious light, bringing us a moment
or our dream of joy, peace and comfort, but when we gain it,
when we step back into life,
the black cloud appears, enveloping us in it's cold damp despair once again.

"UndiscoveredSoul"

The Abyss

I miss the illusion of the past, those things I thought as reality

My faith and trust you wore as a disguise....
Through my trust in you, you hid your lies

Now I am stuck a nightmare of which I can no longer bear.
My life, this reality is now a vortex of despair

No longer trying, no movement forward, forever going nowhere
one step back, one step back, tumbling into the abyss.

Pride, passion, faith and drive vanished dropped away
one step down, one step down into the abyss.

Future sealed, no hope for improvement,
struggling
gasping
succumbing
sucked down into the abyss

"UndiscoveredSoul"

Books Have Covers, to Judge One Another....

When you Judge a book by it's cover,
you leave the pages un-turned
and the treasure within undiscovered.

When you judge a book by it's cover,
you define by the visual, by the assumptions,
but in turn you have defined your self.

Covers and assumption do not define who we are,
what we can or can not do,
what we can or can not become.

Covers and judgments are shortcomings of the beholder,
who lack the depth of character to search
within their subject, to truly explore
the hidden treasures within.

Stuck in reverse...

Stuck in the past, only focus on the negatives.
Stuck in the past, old worry, emotion and regret.
Only see what WAS, letting what IS slip by.

It stares you in the face, the joy, happiness and beauty,
but your vision is clouded with thoughts of yesterday
It slips through your fingers, the blessings and gift of today,
left holding despair, regret and sorrow.

On a constant turning wheel of sadness and self pity
unable to get off, unable to stop,
a compulsion to focus on what was.
That energy is wasted, the past song long sung


Move forward into today, not defined by what was
but creating a new definition by the lessons once learned.
Live for today, hope for tomorrow, but never let the past poison the present.

One year...

It has been almost one year since that fateful day.... I never imagined that when I kissed and hugged you and we joked for a bit, that those were our final moments together, those were your final words. We were waiting patiently to hear that everything went well. but as time flew on we knew something went wrong. They wheeled you past the door in a blur, we heard you cry out and that is when time stood still. Life in that instant forever changed. We were the last people in the waiting room, waiting.... waiting.

 When I walked into the ICU, you were flanked from above by two angels whom I recognized, I knew then that time was short. No one really knew why I reacted as I did.. but my world crushed me in that moment... to see my father, my superman, waiting for his turn to ascend into heaven. Those six days were the most painful days of all of my existence. I stayed by your side, held your hand and spoke to you... You could barely respond, but I understood as if it were clear as crystal. I knew you wanted to see J and A, so I sent for them...

We 5 were all together in the room with you that day... you responded to J and A... J promised to take care of your girls and for you to not worry. A told you how much she loves her Pa, forever. When they left that afternoon, mom and I watched as you slipped further under. By morning we heard the update and final prognosis. You waited to hear from and see from your vantage point J and A before you began your full journey.

Two days later you were no longer hooked up to anything, but resting as comfortable as we could provide. You waited for my to leave that morning, before you has one final private moment with mom. She told me you turned your head, opened your eyes and focused on hers... one single tear fell from your eye, as you sighed a deep sigh, mom told her she loves you and it is okay... you closed your eyes and left us. She said she watched you leave your physical body... we know you are safe and well now.

I came to see you, so did J. It was the hardest thing to see, to experience.. to see you there, but you were not really there. I held your hand and kissed your forehead for almost an hour. I did not want to leave you... I wanted you back.

Now you visit us, you speak to me and you still have fun with us. I know you are well now, I know you are watching over us... that star in the sky. I love you dad... I miss you more than I can really put into words. I want to hug you one more time, see your smile and hold your hand. One day I will get that chance... but for now, take care of those who are there with you and tell them all they are loved.

Undiscovered Soul Quotes...

(This will be updated from time to time and thusly re-posted at the top of the blog.)


Life is like a multicolored tapestry of emotions and experience... I hope to one day look back upon my tapestry and see it as a beautiful masterpiece imperfections and all. (Undiscovered Soul)

Sometimes I truly hate my life, but then I look up and see who I share it with.... That is what keeps me going. (Undiscovered Soul)

Not a single one of us are perfect, we were not designed to be...Embrace each other's perfect imperfections for that is the perfect way to be. (Undiscovered Soul)

Sometimes you must open the flood gates in order for the river to become peaceful once again. (Undiscovered Soul)

Judging others only reveals your true colors (Undiscovered Soul)

Life was not designed to be perfect, but to be an imperfect journey to reach perfection, embrace those imperfections, for that is where perfection is found. (Undiscovered Soul)

Embrace the perfect imperfections in others, for you are not above nor below but equal. (Undiscovered Soul)

Away....Apart

I feel you pulling away,
Your love is falling away,
I feel us drifting away,
Our love is going away,
I feel like running away.

Torn apart, falling apart, drifting apart, together yet apart.............

Slowly killing my heart


(Undiscovered Soul)

Nightmares...

It's been four months,
we've been together only once.

What more can I possibly say?
Is there really anything left to say?

I've tried and tried and yet I fail,
my advances to no avail.

My desire is beginning to fade,
our love is like a big charade.

I feel scared and alone,
our house no longer a home.

For the love we had now seems gone...
could it possibly be gone?

In marriage you share intimacy,
but that is what you are refusing me.

I feel like I am dieing inside,
these tears that I am fighting to hide.

It seems you don't care anymore,
if I sleep in your bed or on the floor.

Please make this damn nightmare stop,
I'm begging you.....
please make it stop.

(Undiscovered Soul)

Ebb and flow....

The tide rolls in, the tide rolls out,
the ebb and flow pushes me about.

One day is hell, the next not quite as bad,
Wish only good days were all that I had.

Reality for me, has never been easy,
But maybe my life was not meant to be.

So I struggle to make progress, to move on within my life,
I want to be accepted and loved as a mother and wife.

I am poor, yet not needy, but can not pay my bills,
I am depressed and always sad, the pain it slowly kills.

Do not take for granted, your vacations, loves or friends,
or you could be like me, experience the pain that never ends.

I have none of that, no friends at all, no one wants me close,
They try to hide their feelings, but their distaste for me shows.

I have had a few reunions,  re-connections from the past,
But the happiness and joy I felt was never meant to last.

I don't know where I went wrong, if I am truly not worthwhile,
Or if I am a bad person, somehow nasty even vile.

I am sorry that you do not like me, that I am worth nothing to you,
I guess I am a terrible person not worth love or friendship too.

(Undiscovered Soul)