Tuesday, October 9, 2007

I am.... not what you think I am...



Just a simple girl, trying to live in peace and harmony in this chaotic world.

OPEN COMMUNICATION is the key to harmony and peace so if you have a problem with me, take it to me directly not like a coward on a public outlet like Facebook or a BLOG.... that shows immaturity and tactlessness.
Above all else I will defend myself and my family against abuse, unfair judgments or harsh individuals.
I will not allow myself nor those I love be abused emotionally, verbally or physically. I am not a door mat.
We have no room for liars, gossips or hate mongers in our life, PLEASE leave your judgments at the door.

When I was a child I was belittled and bullied, learned to despise myself due to my looks and my weight, to the point I despised myself to the core and suicide was a constant thought, 4 failed attempts in the silence of the night, brought me out unto the light. But suicide is still a ghost, haunting me from time to time.


I am a mother, a wife and a daughter.
I am unique, one of a kind, misunderstood, some times cast away.
I am honest, brutaly honest, I am transparent yet private.
I am deep and emotional, easily bruised yet thick skinned.


I am shy, yet sometimes outgoing, I am down to Earth, yet my mind wanders among the clouds.
I am creative and artistic, poetic and imaginative.
I am filled with the blood of ancient peoples, their drum beat still sings to my soul.
I am open minded and live with eyes wide open to the wonders around me, seen and unseen.


I am Tolerant and compassionate, but refuse to be abused, disrespected or belittled.
I am giving and loving, yet protecting and guarded.
I am spiritual and open minded, who knows she is not perfect, nor was made to be that way.
I am unjudging, yet opinionated.


I am sensitive, I take things to heart, but not easily offended.
I am naughty and erotic, yet I am respectful and private.
I am blessed, loved and accepted by very few...
those who do not accept me as I am have no place in my life.


Life is not perfect, it was not meant to be, it is a journey of the physical and spiritual all wrapped up in one.